It is a good day - good things happend.
But I do feel so sad.
Inside - it bleeds.
The wounds will heel. I know.
But this is going to belong to me forever. This finding is not changeable.
I never wanted to make this decision. I knew I can’t deal it. But I have to.
So I’m bleeding. Until I’m strong enough to stand up again. Until I can say I’ve made it through.
I wish you all the best.
I wish you all the best with your grey car.
And the shoes I choose for you.
I wish you all the best with your sunglasses I’ve looked out for you.
I wish you all the best with the memories. Cause I don’t want anymore.
I don’t want to ignore what everybody is seeing and asking me.
I don’t want to be the matter for whispering and wondering. And after all I don’t want to be unfair or lying.
So, because you can’t - I do say no.
No I can’t stay in this friendship longer this way. Not a single minute. Take your time to find yourself again and to lick your wounds - I wish you all the best.